Well I went to School today October 18,2007 and spoke to your class and thought I could do it with such composer but boy was I wrong. As I walked in the room filled with your classmates a total feeling of sadness came over me and I couldn't help it. I did the best I could. I couldn't even read what I had wrote because I couldn't see through the tears. As I looked at them all I could think of was you were suppose to be sitting out there somewhere and I wouldn't be doing this at all. But with the scholarship at risk I had to let them know about it so you could help one of them go to college. I know you would be proud of me no matter how bad I think I done but Babe I got up in front of your classmates and did the best I could.
Mama
April 15, 2008
Hey Babe,
Just thought I would let you know that I have been doing pretty good lately. I've been in a fairly good mood for about 4 weeks now. I have to say that it does feel good to feel good some time. I think about you all the time and still wonder why but I know there is no answer for me. I have your picture on my desk and a heart around my neck that i'm never witout that has your picture in it. A lot of stuff happening these days some good some sad. As Mother's day draws closer I try not to think about it but what is on my mind is graduation. I've tried not to think about it to much but it just keeps slipping in. I'm not looking forward to that night but I will be there no matter what. It was suppose to be one of the happiest days of my life seeing you walk. Remember I use to tell you that you were not going to deprive me of crying that night. Well rest assured I will be crying no matter how hard I try not to. So you just send me a sign because I know you willl be there with me. I love you son so much no-one can take that away from me. You were taken away from me but no one can take the love and memories from me. I love you and miss you so much every single day. Well I guess that's all for now. I love you,
I love you,
Mama
August 12, 2008
Hey Babe,
Just thought I would write you a little bit. Been thinking about school alot these days. I guess you would be starting college now bringing me a little down. I know you would probably be going to ole Miss and I would have to be a rebel fan. I know you would like that now wouldn't you. but I would have been the best ole miss fan alive if only you were here to be playing ball for them. Alot of your friends are starting college this year and I can't help but think you would be leaving home and how I would handle it. I wouldn't have done so well probably but would have been better that this. But this is the card I was delt so I just think about what might have been and miss you so bad. so so bad I can't stand it most days. Getting that time of year you know and I worry bout how I'm going to handle it this year. Like all the rest I suppose just do it. I love you so much and miss you so bad. I wish you were here every single day that goes by. Not one minute that you don't cross my mind or might I say you never leave it. Anyway guess that's all for now I'll write soon. Of course you know I'm here everyday.
I love you Baby,
Mama
